Bad Idea by Max Walker

Author:Max Walker [Walker, Max]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-05-29T04:00:00+00:00

19 Jonah Brightly

I felt like I was dreaming. Fox had me on a different planet. It helped that we were still the only ones here in this tiny stretch of quiet beach. It made it feel all the more dreamlike. A little world I created solely for us in my head, a bubble bound to pop the moment I woke up.

Except this wasn’t in my head. Fox was literally in front of me, water gleaming on his chest, highlighting the beautiful colors from his tattoos. The flowers appeared like they were painted on by a masterful artist, turning an already masterpiece of a man into more perfection.

Masterpiece. Jesus. He’s really gotten under my skin…

And yet I couldn’t seem to get under his. A seagull squawked nearby, as if adding a punctuation mark to my awkward attempt at getting to know him.

Of course Fox doesn’t want to open up to me. Why would he?

The spectre of my self-doubt started looming higher over my head. I could talk about faking self-confidence all day, but when it came time to actually doing it, my confidence was nowhere to be found, not even the fake kind.

Especially now, around Fox. I felt… lesser than, almost. Fox had it all together. He knew where his life was headed, where he wanted to land, who he wanted to land with.

I knew nothing. I was thrown back into the air like a stray leaf spinning through a hurricane. I was working a new job and feeling an entirely new spectrum of emotions. All aimed toward the man who kicked off this new part of my life. I knew absolutely nothing.

“It was my parents,” Fox began. “I wanted to get away from them.” He had his hazel-green eyes aimed out toward the horizon. “They weren’t exactly the best. I thought my only option was signing up for the army and flying across the world, as far from them as I could get.”

“Did it… did it fix the problems?”

Fox shook his head. His expression was heavy, like the memories alone weighed him down. His thick eyebrows were turned downward. There was a palpable sadness that told me the problems only got worse.

“Who would have thought?” Fox said, seeming to collect himself and mustering a smile. “Maybe a therapist would have been a better choice, but hey, can’t change the past. Means I can’t let myself regret it either.”

He amazed me, his ability to smile even when it was clear his mind had gone to a dark place. I wanted to keep asking questions, to keep diving deeper into Fox and what made him him. I wanted to, but I couldn’t.

Hell, I couldn’t even look into his eyes. I was feeling… fuck, I was getting anxious. It was like a riptide had come and dragged my mind away, pulling it into the deep dark ocean.

This was wrong. I felt so strongly for Fox, and I could feel a tug from him, too. But it couldn’t work. We wouldn’t work. I’d never… but I wanted to.

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